Off Day

I have discovered something that will not surprise you: I am bad at stopping. There, I admitted it. I am really terrible at not staying busy, and am completely lost without my to-do list. It is sad, really.

I had the day off yesterday, and had all these things that I needed to get done, but I didn’t make a to-do list. I didn’t want to be frantic, just very productive in a calm, relaxed way. But without my to-do list, I was like a kid who walks into Disney World with no one to guide them. I just looked around at the wonder that was my day, and did almost nothing with it. I had set my alarm for early enough but not too early, but when it went off I told myself, “You don’t really have to get up. There is nowhere you have to be today at any specific time.” So I went back to sleep for another hour. Then when I did get up, I ate breakfast, and sat on the couch, reading. I had no motivation, because I didn’t have my list dictating my next move. My day off had become an off day.

So that was my morning. Finally, near noon, I got it in gear and got ready for my day, ate lunch, and made a list. I know, I know…… You’re shaking your head that I made a list on my day off instead of enjoying my lazy day. But if I had continued with my lazy pattern, nothing would have gotten done, and I would have felt bad by bedtime. So I made a list. And my day went much smoother. I need to have things lined out for me, and planned out. Now, at one point, I did change my plan and came home for a nap to get rid of a headache. And when I woke up, I went back to my list and finished running my errands.

I guess today’s life lesson is this: Know yourself. If you are a spontaneous soul who is happy going where the wind blows you, then do that. And if you’re like me, and need a list to mark off, and guidance for your day, make your list. And don’t let yourself feel bad about. God made us all different, and guess what? He loves you just the way He made you. List and all. J